2 Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters,[a] whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3 because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. 4 Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. 5 If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you.
I don't know about the 'pure joy' part of this yet, but I can tell you that testing does produce perseverance. It can also create cynicism. Why so many tests, when will I be done, how much longer before I pass muster? It all seems like one life long test to me.
Do you follow what I'm saying? Do you get what I'm puttin down?
Persevering can make you tired, but you dare not sleep. Even your dreams become tests. Wrestling with God and His supernatural opponent can just wear you out, especially when you are sleeping. You see, Mr Right entered my dreams last night. I did not recognize him, so apparently we have not met yet, but he was hot, he was nice to me. He liked me. We wrestled. It's my favorite thing. Damn. It's not fair. I hope he is just a figment of my slumbering imagination and not a real man. I will fall hard. If he exists, I pray the Lord kill him before I meet him. Save both of us the pain. You know, it's one thing to tease me when I'm awake. I can deal with that, but where do you escape to when you're asleep? I woke up a wet, hot mess. It was over. I pray it never happens again. There was some joy in it, but it was of the earthly, fleeting variety. I best not discuss it. Rough night. It was like being a teenager all over again. I'm 58 and I still have all my kinks in place. My thorn in my flesh was briefly infected.
Can anyone tell me when Satan will leave me alone forever? Do I have to be dead and in heaven for a week? Being old is supposed to insulate me right? It's not working. Please pray I get real sleep tonight. Lord, send an angel. Drive him away from me, my house, my family, my work and my Brothers and Sisters. Please no more tests for awhile. I am not up to it.